July 17, 2009

Last year on July 17th we heard your little heartbeat inside me for the first time. Your dad picked me up for our appt. and Dr. Vazquez found your heart right away. It was one of the best days of my life. Now, a year later, I can’t believe all that has happened. You have changed me in so many positive ways. It feels like you were my missing piece. With you, now I am whole. Completely myself.

Bday

Well on Thursday I turned 33. WHAT!? I know, I feel 26 I think. How in the hell did this happen?? Oh well, it truthfully doesn't bother me. My life is so much better now then at 26. Although 26 was a BLAST, my little munch wasn't here.

So, on Thursday a few of us went out to eat at Casa Maya. It was my first time, but everyone raved about it b/c of the fresh, organic ingredients. I have to say, it was very good, except our server was in a rotten mood. John hates bad service (like everyone) b/c he was a bartender for so long. He knows when they should be accommodating & when they are just being jerks. Anyway, she was a jerk. Oh well. It didn't ruin our time. John got me some new Electric shades and this awesome diaper bag. The diaper bag was made from his close family friend with fabric from Japan. RAD. I'll post a pic later.

I'm really excited for tonights festivities too. The girls are coming over for make your own pizza & drinks! HB is still in Maryland, so she can't come. :(

ps - It has been a magical 108 degrees here lately.

Realization

Last night my mom and I went to market night. We got some fresh produce, sunflowers, 6 mini donuts, a toe ring. You know, the essentials. The street was crowded. The baby was not so impressed and fell right to sleep. But, as we were walking around I realized something. I was looking at all the kids there in dyed black hair, skinny jeans, piercings. Listening to them yell at one another and I realized, I one day, will have a teenager...

That frightens me.

Weekend

I love our Saturday mornings. The three of us lay in bed, sipping our coffee, playing with the baby, falling back asleep, playing our scrabble games. John in a singsong voice says “I’m a standing man, I’m a standing man” as baby J props himself up over and over. Everyone is in a great mood on Saturday, always.

First Fourth

Hallelujah for 3 day weekends. This 4^th of July was on Sunday. We woke up late (lovely), John took the baby so I leisurely got ready for the day. Painting my toes and attempting self tanner. How nice! We all got ready, picked up some goodies at Fresh N Easy and headed to Chris Conway’s house. Despite teething the baby did great. He smiled for everyone, dipped his toes in the pool, took a snooze (I did have to drive him down the street to get him down though), hung out with his baby friend Richie and his cousin Slade AND he tasted the goodness of watermelon!! Our little munch loved sucking on the cold watermelon.

And… on Monday John rolled over from back to front! He can now roll in both directions. Such a genius, I swear. ;)

Pity Party

Well, this was my first full week back at work. The beginning of the week went well for baby & me. Wednesday was a little rough for the little guy and Thursday was a little rough for me. Tears were shed and not just from the baby. Luckily, John could tell in my voice I was upset & met me for lunch on Thursday. His plan was to bring the baby, but of course, he fell asleep for his nap right at lunch. So just John met me, but that helped too. I've talked to all my working mom friends and they all said it gets easier. I hope their right.

I can't believe how much there is to get done after work each day. Spend time with baby, spend time with each other, feed dogs, try to pay attention to the dogs, wash all the bottles & pump stuff for the next day, get bottles poured & ready for next day, bathe baby, bathe myself, cook dinner or find dinner, clean up dinner, clean up house, get coffee ready for next day, feed baby, put baby to bed, oh and try to take some time for yourself & relax. And what if I have errands to run? Or what if I wanted to actually run? Overwhelming.

I'm sure we will figure it out & get in a groove. It just seems like a lot right now. I am so thankful for my mom & Bev. They have helped us out a TON this week!!! I'm also thankful for this three day weekend. Tonight John made us dinner & the baby was out at 9:00.

Maybe things are already getting easier! ;)